FlashingLightsAndSmiles

Happy 90th Birthday to my dearest Grandpa.

2009-10-25T20:59:00.001-07:00

Hi my fellow bloggers.. I haven't been on here much. I was dealing with a lot of drama still in my life. There has been a lot of family parties like every weekend. On top of that, I have been feeling sick. The weather has been really strange here. One week it would be really cold and snowing a bit then the next week would be warm and sunny. Well, I actually can't wait for our first snow storm, I love how beautiful the snow looks. (=

Well, Today was a special day. My grandpa turned 90 and we all celebrated his birthday with lots of love. It's amazing how strong he is.. About 2 years ago he had a near death experience. The doctors didn't believe he would survive it. We all rush to the hospital waiting as we hear that he had internal bleeding inside somewhere in his body. He kept coughing out blood.. Long story short, he had to get transported by a helicopter to a different hospital that had doctors that could treat him. Everybody had to drive 2 hours to a different hospital. We were gathering around praying and crying.. we really didn't know if he was going to make it. He was a fighter alright.. For someone his age to make it through such trauma is just simply amazing. Especially after that day, doctors told us that he will only have about 6 months to live. I tell you, those doctors are freakn stupid.. We celebrated his 90th birthday today and I hope there will be many more. NOBODY absolutely nobody can tell you how long you can live for. I Love You Grandpa..

Let's get on with some pictures I took.

Half of the girl cousins and I with grandma and grandpa ;)

Ahhh..not a good picture LOL i'm the one wearing a dress if you can't figure out.

Just like how this pic came out. Unedited! Was using my brothers nikon cam and the flash was bright. =P

I gotta go get ready for the night so I will come back to yalll laterz...

BTW, I did receive the bracelet.. Haven't worn it yet, maybe I should tonight ;)

I'll take a pic of the bracelet when i wear it later. Thank you mucho stacie! =]

Back to my real LOVE.

2009-10-06T18:22:00.000-07:00

Thank you soo much to those who left me very kind and caring words ;)
I appreciated it soo much because it helped me out a whole lot!! <333

Iv'e forgotten the jerk face already. Why hurt over a guy that doesn't care about me..

So I really want to get back to my love for photography. I decided to show you guys some more of my work!!! A month ago I took photos for a wedding and my sister was hired to do her hair and makeup!! We make a perfect team!! <33

Before hair and makeup:

After:

My sister transformed her into a Beautiful bride..she was sooo happy!!

Gosh... I love wedding photography.. This is silly but I actually got teary eyed at one point.. Being able to photograph a bride on her wedding day is soo special!!

I gave up 3 years of my life for a heartless person.

2009-10-03T15:06:00.000-07:00

So you might know that I was in an on and off relationship. Well now it's OFF for damn good. Why was it an on and off relationship for 3 years and 2 months? Simply because I was a fool!!! Yes, i admit it. I always let this dude hurt me and get away with it.. in the end i always forgive him. Lets start by the biggest issue in this relationship.. He constantly lies!!! It all began...the cycle of facebook.. I caught him having a facebook to talk to girls on it, the things i saw on there hurt me so bad.. if it wasn't bad enough.. he used a picture we took together but cut me off and even erased our names and date on it. Of course I broke up with him! But what happened? He apologized and promise he wouldn't make facebook again to talk to girls. Oh you know it, i let it slide because I wasn't thinking with my head but rather my heart. My head was telling me to leave the jerk but my heart tells me i love him and need to work things out.

Months later on.. I found out he made facebook again under a different name!!! I can't even say what his excuse was because it was just sooo lame and I'm embarrassed. I broke up with his ass again! My heart ached for weeks.. he then calls me and came up to see me to say he know he's wrong and promise he won't make facebook again.. LMAO i'm an idiot. Love makes u stupid. We got back... of course that promise wasn't going to last long.

So get this, this one friday back in 2008, I gathered my stuff to get ready to go to his apartment in boston.. I called him and he tells me he's going to be really busy with studying this whole weekend so it won't be a good idea if I come down. I was such a considerate girlfriend, I missed him and wanted to see him but i know studying is important..I agreed to not come see him. Later on at night..I couldn't get a hold of him for a long time.. When I finally got a hold of him at 11:30 pm he starts bitching at me for calling him so many times and tells me he just got back home from the library. So everything was fine after that. Few weeks ago i checked the library hours and on fridays they close really early. I started to cry because I was really dumb to believe everything he said when they were all a lie. The next day, he finally tells me he has his friend staying with him.. like wtff!!..he didn't want me to come up to boston and stay with him for the weekend cus he has alot to study but then he tells me his friend is staying with him for the weekend. I do not trust this guy at all with my ex because back then they used to go to restaurants and hit on waitresses and I find out because I went on his email and saw he messaged some girl.. saying he went into the restaurant she was working in and he was the one wearing red.. Saying along the lines of "I think your cute, I facebook u but u didnt accept it yet".. *sighhh* So back to that weekend. So I was so nervous knowing his friend was staying with him.. We started to argue about that and out of a sudden he says some cuss words to me. I was like this is it I am done.. bye and hung up. What did he do? Nothing. Didn't care to call back to apologize.. hell.. didn't even call me for the rest of the day. The next day on a sunday he finally text me saying I'm sorry i swore at you. TEXT! TEXT! Not man enough to call and say sorry.

Okay, So the next day Monday...lord..do u even wanna hear me say this again... I went onto an email he didn't know i knew the password to. I saw it again... facebook... so i didn't know the pw to his facebook but I changed it to get in.. wow.. shit was grimey.. trying to get with other girls again under some fake ass stupid name again. I called him and i acted like i didn't know anything.. I told him I miss him and I said I should of believe you wouldn't wanna go out and talk to girls too. He's like it's okay...and then i asked him straight up.. If he has a facebook.. He denies it of course!! I broke up with him..

We eventually got back cus he would show up at my house begging for me back. We were working things out and for a while we were good until I found out the most hurtful thing. I saw pics of him clubbing on someone's myspace.. Clubbing on two different days at different places. I was determined to find out exactly when he went clubbing.. and woww...that was on a Saturday the weekend he told me to not come up to see him because he had alot to study. I broke up with him indeed... I was so hurt as usual.. Yeah i ended up giving him another chance like a month later.. I couldn't stand the hurt and I was very weak when he would try really hard to get back together.

You know, there is so much other shit he hid from me and lies but I won't go on stating any more crap.. I always said i could write whole book about it. Don't worry I won't...lol Just wanted to get this out off my chest and maybe help some people out.

We are really done now.. The breakup had to do with girls again.

We been broken up for a month..and this time is so different because we haven't tlk on the phone since we broken up.

I just wanted to do this post cus honestly, it helped alot actually... And I know it will help me in the long run, I will look back on this post and say that it's def for the best I don't give him any more chances because he's never going to stop mistreating me.. all the reasons are there.

And even though he tried to get back at first.. which was a lame attempt cus it didn't really showed how much he cared. Never apologized.. Didn't take him long til' he started being a careless asshole. Now that school is back.. there are girls to occupy his mind.. Maybe he went clubbing again. Now he can facebook all he want..Who knows.. all I know is that he's selfish and won't get away from hurting me again.

He has about 6 email accounts.. who the fuck needs that many email accounts? I'll tell you who....LIARS!!!

I was soo messed up by it all that iv'e lost 10 lbs. Every morning I wake up feeling how much skinnier iv'e become.. I start to get too depressed. I don't have an appetite to eat at all. I just can't understand how could someone be so selfish and careless. If those girls were actually interested him.. he wouldn't have ever cared to try and get back with me. I was practically just there til he finds somebody else.

I was used...betrayed...

The only thing that keeps me positive is my passion for photography. Even sometimes I just wanna give up on that.. but I wont.. I CAN'T.

I hate him to not even care about my well being... I'm not even going to try and work things out with him.. In the beginning I thought, maybe JUST maybe we could work things out.. but now, I realized he took my love for granted and played a game.. Whenever i felt extremely down to the point I didn't wanna live anymore..I call him...and he just keeps ignoring it.

I am not going to be that stupid and weak girl anymore.

All i can say now to him is... Have all the fun you want now but don't think about trying to get back with me when you're done being selfish.

Like I said.. I think this could help other people out there.. whether you are in an on and off relationship or just so you know what to expect in a relationship. If it doesn't work out the first time.. why would it work out the second, or third time. Don't give into the I'm sorry Or I promise bullshit.. I did because I loved him. ohhh..silly me...

Now, i'm not claiming i'm a perfect gf.. Yeah I can do some messed up things but at least I can be honest about it and though he wouldn't be able to find out I talked to another dude while we breakup, I let him know.. Everything I did was because of him anyways. You want to talk to other girls, you will have to learn that I can replace you too. I didn't go making facebook to talk to other guys on and I sure dont seek other dudes to get with.. But you, you always tried to replace me.
I can't imagine all the other shit he's done behind my back that I couldn't find out on the computer.

I'm angry at myself in the end because I should have known better. So ladies, relationships can get really ugly but if you find a good man than congrats cus it's not easy finding a good man that can appreciate you and be real with you.

I came upon this article earlier about Facebook ruining relationships..I know it isn't just me that goes through this bullshit. I feel so bad esp. for married women!!
Facebook ruined my relationship.

I know this post is super long...altho I could of go on longer.. i'll just leave it at that.

That was 3 years of my life I can't take back.. Please don't make the same mistakes i did. I always used to think "I rather hurt with him then without him". It take's time to heal and expect that it could even be months or years.. Eventually the right guy will come around.

;)

Trying out my Tri color brown and Model 28 lashes

2009-09-27T23:34:00.000-07:00

zoomed in..

I love it.. even tho it looks more hazel at times but very natural ;)

and the model 28 lashes i got it on ebay set of 10 pairs for $8. Very cheap!! So i bought 2 boxes of em..style #21 and style #4. Here i am wearin style #21.. i only like them in pictures but not in real life. I wanna try their other styles and find a more natural one. Style #4 was too short for my liking so it was a bummer!

So i also bought 2 other lenses from another seller.. i bought the angel grey for my sister and the EOS adult grey for myself.

My sister loved her angel grey and it was her first time trying circle lens out. She loved the enlargement effect it gave her.

I personally don't care for the enlargement effect that is why i got the tri color brown and adult grey.. they don't enlarge much or hardly.

I was very dissapointed about my Adult Grey... One lens was darker then the other..

No FLASH. Sorry for the yucky pic, no eye makeup.

My right eye was soo irritated and no I didn't have it inside out.. each side both had the purple ring around it.

The EOS series cost more than the other circle lens =[

Do your reviews guys!!!

Ad for Hello Kitty Phone

2009-09-24T21:55:00.000-07:00

Still alive.

2009-09-21T00:05:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody that wondered why i haven't updated this for so long.. I've been going through a very tough time. I don't want to put it out there whats been going on in my life since it's too personal. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me either. As long as i'm still living and breathing then i'm good.

Everything will be okay.. That's what everybody says right? So i'll be fine eventually.

Picture taken last night after getting home tired from a wedding. Just had to do one for blogspot =D

As you can see, iv'e dyed my hair again ;)

mwuahzzzz thanks for followin my blog! <3

New look

2009-07-27T12:49:00.001-07:00

Your hair is really important to how you look. Basically i was tired of looking plain w/ long dark hair.. also i looked like the grudge from the back LOL

yayy for blonde highlights =]

Twilight inspired photoshoot

2009-07-17T22:03:00.000-07:00

Of course i had to make this photoshoot happen! My friend and I love Twilight. She got me into reading the books lol She looked great as a vampire.. we had a little bit of an issue with the fangs tho.

Enjoy the pictures ;)

When i have time i really need to create a nice logo and change my layout!! All too time consuming.. somebody help meeeeeee lol

Day 2 Photoshoot

2009-07-09T17:02:00.000-07:00

Thank you everybody that left a very nice comment on the first photoshoot ;)
My sister does hair and makeup professionally. I help her take pictures for her portfolio. She's booked to do a wedding on the 27th. I will help her w. the bridesmaids makeup. So exciting!! I love to paint faces lol =] Well here are the pictures.. My sister did a couple different looks with lynn.

My sister made the flower that's on the headband out of ribbon..cool huh?

So i came up with this cute idea with my niece's barbie laptop. lolz

BTW, Normally i would watermark my pictures but i really don't have time to..not that i'm lazy but i am not using my laptop right now. Please be respectful of my pictures.. =]

And also i wish i could go on here more often but i have not yet sent out my laptop to hp to get fix cus i will need to get eveything saved on a jump drive first..so can't wait til i can go on here more oftenly, post more pictures and i need a new layout too!!!

New Photoshoot

2009-07-08T20:14:00.000-07:00

I haven't been online much due to the fact that the wireless adapter for the laptop isn't working..so iv'e been using my sister's laptop any chance I got but never had enough time to post a new blog. Today, I did a photoshoot for my cousin.. My sister did her hair and makeup. Lynn looked beautiful!! My sister needed to do some before and after makeup/hair to show her clients some of her work. Tomorrow we are doing another photoshoot.

My sister made the flower hair pieces..pretty huh? She make's custom hair pieces and sells them so if you are interested you can let me know ;)

I wanted to see how this picture would look in black and white..

loveeeee ittttt in black and white =]

yayyy guess what came in the mail today!

2009-06-19T12:38:00.000-07:00

Finally..my usb cable came in, about time. I'm so excited i'm posting this picture first of me and the baby mama! Yes, it was her baby shower/engagement.

I took this picture of her outside.. isn't she beautiful and baby bump is soo cute ;)

My first time seeing a baby bump casting..such a cool idea!!

The cake was soo cute.. the little details with the lil baby bottles and duckies.

mmm...doesn't it look yummy. I didn't get to have some cake cus i was busy taking pictures lol =[

They played a lot of games, most of them having to do with baby stuff..this one is called who sucks the best. Whoever drank the most juice with the baby bottle when the time stop is the winner. They said it was actually hard to drink out out of the baby bottle. Prize for each winner of the games. It's so fun.. iv'e never been to a party like that. Besides playing musical chair when i was in middle school at a friends birthday party.. i miss parties like that!!

I will post more pics!!

Lost my USB cord for my camera.

2009-06-14T20:14:00.000-07:00

Mother Trucker...Effin sucks! I wanna post up pictures from yesterday, so i just purchased another USB cord on ebay. Not to mention i lost my Lens cap for my camera at the party too. I had fun though, lol good times.

Here are two pics of the flowers on my dining room table.. taken 3 weeks ago lol

I'm so bummed out i can't post the pics up from yesterday.. hopefully the USB cord comes in soon!

Last minute shopper!

2009-06-12T20:22:00.001-07:00

Yes, most of the time i shop for the perfect dress the last minute. So last night, i was talking to my cousins about how i hate the mall here since there's barely any cute dresses and the only place i can find a cute dress is Forever21 but that is risky cus i know how every girl around here loves to shop there.. i would be afraid to be caught wearing the same dress as somebody else. Had that happen to any of you? It never happened to me but i would imagine it would be very awkward lol So my cousin says ohhh yeah i just purchase a dress at Forever21, how does the dress your going back for look like? I'm like it's black on the bottom and top is white with abstract print. She was like omg that sounds like the one i bought. So i showed her the dress on the site and she's like yup that's what i bought. Bummerrr... so i couldn't go back and buy the dress!

So anyways, the good news! I went back to the mall today in search of another dress. I went in every store there is, practically looked at every dress and had no luck. I went into forever21 again and was thinking you know what? I'm determined to just buy a dress, so sick of looking around. So i picked out about 4 dresses to try on until all of a sudden they took out new shipment of clothes and there was this super cute vintage looking dress they just put out. I took it right away and went straight to the fitting room. Tried it on and didn't even have to try the other dresses on. I bought it and left to go find heels! It was sooo frustrating! I looked for a long ass while and came up with nothing. So i told my friend about the situation and she suggested i check out payless because she can find some cute stuff there. I was like thinking, hell no i would not find anything there.. Wrong!!! I saw these orange heels that was the exact shade of orange with the print of my dress. For only 10 bucks!!! I'm a lucky bitch!!! LOL

U know your lazy when you take pics using your phone..lol quality sucks but better then nothing.

I will post up pictures from the engagement tomorrow and you'll see better pics!! Can't wait to do my hair and makeup and see the final look lol... Also, i will be sure to take plenty of pictures!!

Update

2009-06-06T14:15:00.000-07:00

So i guess it's normal to wanna cut your hair after a break up huh? I have long hair and i love it a lot.. but i went through a breakup 3 weeks ago and i just felt like needing a change to my look..

Nope, i didn't cut it.. just put my hair up like that to see how i would look w/ short hair. I decided the best choice was to leave my hair long since i always end up using hair extensions whenever i cut my damn hair LOL.

Here's a picture i took like 2 weeks ago on my phone.

Close pic of the eye

May 16th Wedding day

2009-05-18T17:08:00.000-07:00

My cousins wedding was on Saturday.. Overall had a pretty good time. I took pictures as usual. I'm really beginning to think that Wedding photography is really for me. I love being able to capture all their special moments.

I love these shot i took.. paying attention to details is key and that's one mistake photographers can make.

Just some of tonsss of pictures i took, not going to put too much from it lol I really need to make a legit portfolio so i can show people so they can be interested in hiring me to be their photographer.. but i love sharing my photography on here, i appreciate the kind words ;)

The groom with the bridesmaids.. Yeahh..He broke his hand..poor guy!

I caught the bouquet! Jen tries to yank it out of my hands *SIGHhhhhh... after that she pushed me and i fell on the floor.. knees scraped! LOL Didn't know she wanted to get married that bad..haha

Awards!

2009-05-18T16:12:00.000-07:00

So i haven't had the time to say thanks to the lovely Kitty In Da City for giving me the Friendship Award and Another Award from MAKEUPXA

They're both Gorgeous!! Check out their blog =]

The rules are:
1. Take your award here.
2. Put the logo on your post.
3. Link the person who awarded you.
4. Nominate at least 7 other bloggers.
5. Add the links of those bloggers on yours.
6. Leave a message for your nominees.

I would like to give this award to:
1.Miss Rinnie
2.Becky
3.Whitney
4.Tiff
5.Julie
6.Krystal
7.Abcgrrrl.

I know some of you already got awards already but it's okay just ment that i thought of yall while looking through my list of followers =]

Wedding portraits.

2009-05-02T23:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i took some wedding portraits for my cousin. His fiance came over my place around 11 a.m so i could do her hair and makeup. We went to 3 different locations to shoot. It was a successful photoshoot i would say. Not to mention.. i didn't have an assistant but i had an annoying brother who is 2 years older than me. Long story short. Not really a story but whatever haha. He brought his Nikon camera along. He took some pictures. Let just say, he got on my nerves because i was trying to do my job and some of my shots the bride or groom would be looking else where. Frustrating as hell i tell ya!

Here are some of the photos i took:

I'm heading to bed so i'll post more tomorrow or whenever. It's 2:57 a.m and i have to wake up around 8 to get ready to head up to Springfield Mass for a wedding ceremony... i wanna sleep in damnit!

EDIT: here's a picture from Springfield this afternoon

Katie, Anna, Thao, Nu, Sam, And I

Mohegan Sun Casino

2009-04-12T18:54:00.001-07:00

Yesterday I went to Mohegan Sun Casino down in CT. The boyfriend and I got free tickets to go see a vietnamese concert. My sister boyfriends uncle knows the director or whatever so he got a lot of free tickets to give out. Our seats were really good. We got to meet Cat Tien before the show started. No biggie to me. Besides I wasn't really excited to see the concert, I wanted to play the slot machines at the casino haha I heard so many stories about people winning big on the slots.. My sister won 3 gz the last time she had went to the casino and played slots. Of course i didn't win anything. Instead the boyfriend and I lost $250 all together. lol It's alright.. it's much better than hearing about other people loosing like 1 grand or more. We actually had signs of bad luck before the casino. For instance my boyfriend almost got in a car accident, nearly hitting the oncoming car because he didn't stop at the stop sign!! krispie kreme doughnuts were like at ever corner in the casino lol don't have them here in NH so i just had to try some. I thought i get two to eat right before the show starts. I only got to try the chocolate iced out. The other one i had to throw out and my drink cause we had to get check by security first before going into the arena and they wouldn't allow it inside. Bummer. Some performances were awesome. It annoyed me though a little cause Viet singers love to copy songs. Although i must say this new artist came out singing the cover of one republic apologize gave me chills down my spine. He was unbelievable esp. hearing it live. I took out my phone to record a video. All of a sudden this rude ass bitch of a security taps me a few times pretty hard on my arm while i was focusing on recording and she was like no cameras or recording allowed. Waackkkkkk. I went out to buy nachos and was happy again. Yup made me throw away my new drink and doughnut but they sell food inside anyway. The bf and I left the show 45 mins early because i wanted to try to win some money back. Which in that case loss some more haha. We waited to meet up with everybody after the show. Head to the food court, Of course there was a huge line and had to wait about over an hour for our damn food. Expensive for not so much food, it was terrible i tell ya. Starving, sleepy, and irritated. Not good, not good at all. Casino's sucks unless your rich and have patience. haha.. end up getting home at like 5 am!!

mmm' i love doughnuts baby..

Being a camera whore before heading out to Mohegan Sun..

It sucks i didn't really take any photos.. Sorry if this was a boring post. This isn't a beauty blogspot or nothing special, just me being me.. posting up unimportant stuff for ya'll to see, only for me to keep to reflect back on someday. =]

And to end this, i will like to share a video i took of me feeding one of my fishes..
Makes me laugh after seeing how dramatic i was being hahaha

Photoshoot

2009-04-08T21:02:00.000-07:00

Today was sooooooo freakn cold. Verry cloudy. But i am pleased with a lot of the shots taken. My hands were shaking while taking the pics!! hahhaa.

Well here some of the pictures. I will upload more so check back like always ;)

On our way back there was bad a car accident.. pretty bad huh

REMEMBER TO DRIVE SAFELY AND BUCKLE UP!

2009-03-31T18:36:00.001-07:00

Iv'e been feeling Chasing Pavements a lot lately. I was on youtube listening to the song and then i came upon this little girl...

AMAZING!!!! I love her! She's going to make it big someday with that voice.

I'm back.

2009-03-24T19:36:00.001-07:00

I don't know if ya'll even noticed but damn i have not update this blog in like what? Seems like forever. I miss blogging. I enjoy posting and sharing my thoughts to yall. But truth is, i tend to be a lazy..bitch. sorry loves. I wish i wasn't such a lazy person. Damn. Everytime i start to make a post.. i just don't feel any desire to hit publish. haha yes, i'm a weirdo. What's wrong with me? Well iv'e finally picked up on reading twilight and now i'm on the second book new moon. I am so late huh? Well if you have not read twilight you should, It's def. worth reading.

Just had some fun with webcam cus i'm apparently bored as fuck. haha

My sister made a diaper cake for my niece first birthday.

Cool huh? It tasted good too. haha jk.

I noticed these award things are going around blogspot. Nu Nu Doll Nominated me for one. Thank you doll.. You are one cool chick. Ur makeup is always on point.
“This award is bestowed upon a fellow blogger whose blog’s content or design is, in the giver’s opinion, brilliant. “When accepting this auspicious award, you must write a post bragging about it, including the name of the misguided soul who thinks you deserve such acclaim, and link back to the said person so everyone knows she/he is real. Choose a minimum of seven (7) blogs that you find brilliant in content or design. Or improvise by including bloggers who have no idea who you are because you don’t have seven friends. Show the seven random victims’ names and links and leave a harassing comment informing them that they were prized with Honest Weblog. Well, there’s no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon. List at least ten (10) honest things about yourself. Then pass it on!”
10 honest things:
1. I have too many pet peeves haha
2. I have alot of insecurites actually..
3. I am addicted to false lashes
4. I have used hair extensions in 3 ways, clip ins, sewn on, and glue.
5. I don't really have girlfriends here in New Hampshire.
6. I created blogspot because internet was getting boring until i discovered blogspot =]
7. I regret alot of things in the past.
8. I take really long showers..lol
9. I wear size 3 1/2 in kids sneakers.
10. I used to be a shopaholic but now i am a broke ass haha

I nominate:
Julisa
Lipstick Cherry
Naomi
MieMieMie

And..... sweet Krista Cherie, thank you for giving me an award. Love your blog and style girl =]

Rules:
1.When you receive this award, show that you're happy to the giver!
2.Nominate at least 5 blogs, that you think rocks!
3.Let them know about award in their post.
4.Now get bloggin bitches

I nominate....
1. Michelle Bombchell
2. Kae
3. Katrina
4. valiohh
5. Nik-Kia

pweety nails!

2009-03-07T13:05:00.001-08:00

MILANI Nail Lacquer is my favorite nail polishes. I have collected so many colors. Go pick yourself up some!

Rino/BeatFreakz Music/Harajuku Girls

2009-03-06T16:02:00.001-08:00

Before beatfreakz came out on ABDC Rino was MUSIC from Gwen Stefani Harajuku girls!

She was my favorite! Not because she was asian gosh, She stuck out to me with her cute funny personality.. plus she can pull that super short hair off so well. Girl got major swagger lol

Pretty face. I want her sneakers!!!

I'm sure yall tuned in to the finale last night? I was so nervous when they were about to announce the winner of America's Best Dance Crew. I heart Rino, but i voted for Quest Crew. Their last performance blew me away! =P

I want me some cute baggy jeans now.... but no where around here to find cute baggy jeans for girls...=/

Guess Who..

2009-03-05T14:45:00.000-08:00

Yes, it is I!

I will finish this post after, so come back for more pics! I am going to enter my first contest.
So many contests on here but this one just seems so much fun.. plus i freakn love lady gaga's unique style.
Just kiss N Makeup
JOIN CONTEST HERE <3

Fun with makeup.

2009-02-26T13:10:00.000-08:00

After i got back home from the tanning salon. I was bored as hell, so i decided to have some fun with makeup. I am currently using nw35 for the mac coverup. I have alot of compacts esp. light color ones that i haven't used in such a long time because i am dark from tanning now obviously. So yes, i am aware of my face being much lighter, i was using my nc35. lol

Photoshoot for jermey's shop

2009-02-10T11:23:00.001-08:00

Well this guy jermey owns an urban clothing store and he has this guy doing some art work on his walls. He wanted my friend to do a photoshoot so that guy could paint a picture of some.. how should i say it, maybe gangster looking girls? I don't know, but basically like the hip hop vibe. She asked me to do it with her last week and her friend decided to do it today. So, i don't really have much clothing or accesories to make much of a ghetto looking outfit so to speak? I wore a fitted cap that i used to rock way back in the day. I just borrowed some accesories. Haha, let me just also say, I can't really have my hair down straight anymore. I cut so much hair off on the top layers because i wanted to create volume to my hair. LOL i don't know how many freakn times i cut my bangs or my hair and regret it alot afterwards. Very stupid i know. Anyways afterwards we went to a live art show.. the best part of it was that there were 3 dudes mixing and scratching turntables. Didn't stay for long there.. well here are some pics i took today with my phone. Not the best quality but it's alright!

I took this picture before leaving the house on my behold.

Some chick doing her thang lol

This chick is also doing her thang..ha ha kiddin.

I wonder what this piece means to him..

They were really good.

LOL should of done a funny face too.

Yeah I wasn't like amazed with the art work there but it is good to see young people that has a creative mind and uses it =]

Katy perry

2009-02-08T23:47:00.000-08:00

I swear this girl has the cutest style ever. I love to just google her just to see all the outfits she wears. I really wish there were places around here where i can shop for vintage inspired clothing. Forever21 is like the only shit that comes close to it in the mall here and that's not that great. Back in the days forever21 was a really nice place to shop at but these days seriously in my opinion they just keep having the same stuff over and over again. Yes overall the mall here just really sucks ass. We have bunch of stores that closes down and then stupid shit opens there. I can't wait to move to boston.. even though it isn't that great either but it's a step up!

Okay about katy perry again...haha. She inspires me and i don't really say that about any celeb. Her style is fun, cute, and it's just different then other female singers. And of course i love her music. I just wanna posts some pics of her up since i am browsing through pages of her on google. LOL

I am in love with this dress.

Love how this outfit was put together.

This was for her hot n' cold music vid. It's cuteee, i can't wait to see what she will wear on her actual wedding! Not to mention... her bf travis mccoy, i can't be any happier with who she's with cus that guy is fine. hahaha..

I have always wanted to find a bicycle like this one here..it's sooo cutee!!

Valentine's photoshoot

2009-02-07T17:13:00.000-08:00

I'm finally back on here. I just want to say, thank you for all that follow my blog. I haven't been on the laptop to update. My friend has been asking me to do a valentines photoshoot for her for a very long time. It finally felt good to get down to business although it was very early in the morning and i was starving.. however i managed to take some good shots.

Here is some of the pictures i took.. i will post up more later so check back =]

Never regret anything, because at one point it was exactly what you wanted.

2009-02-02T01:15:00.001-08:00

It's hard to watch things change when all you want for them is to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go but you keep holding on and when you want to move on you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it but if it didn't really matter you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.

Thao's Birthday

2009-01-31T01:57:00.000-08:00

First, gotta take a mirror picture with my phone after i got done getting all ready for the night. =]
BTW, I bought that dress earlier that day.. i was going for a dress that would make me look much older since i was going to a 21+ club and i am only 19! LOL I used my sister's ID and she's freakn 27 years old! I think i did a good job looking much older than i normally look. =P

Plus it was black & white, a week before i suggested that we should all dress black and white and have the birthday girl wear her favorite color which was pink but she ended up not doing so. lol

Anyways..
Took pictures of my first tattoo for gee-ya like i said i would. =]

My dress aint really that short, i just pulled it up so you can see how my first tat looks even though not that great of a pic.. I need someone to take a picture instead of me being behind the camera LOL jk I'm looking through the viewfinder so u can't see my face. I love love taking pictures, but i don't want to be called a camera whore please! LOL

Alright, so purpose of this post was to talk about my cousin thao's birthday and post pics of it. I just wanted to post that up first before i forget? LOL just took those pics... just got back home from the club.

I went out to eat at a place called San Francisco Kitchen at 8 pm with only the girls first. My second time there, I didn't have hot pot there like i did last time. Started off with some appetizers, can't really remember, well scallion pancakes was one of them because i ordered it but the rest i don't even know what they were called haha. We had lots of sushi but fuuuuck.. just don't even know the names of the other stuff haha.. some new shit i never tried but it was pretty bomb. Anyways, because i was busy eating i didn't take much of the food but i did snap some good photos. And oh, it's a pain in the ass to take my DSLR camera out, it's big and i am always worried about it being messed up. I have a pocket sized digital camera.. of course it's broken. =/

Just lookin at the sushi... i'm craving it now!!!...

So sweet, the bartender heard it was my cousins brithday so he gave us all free shots..But damn that shit was light as fuck. cheap ass.lol Just kiddding, that was soo nice and i appreciated it =D

The waitresses there help us bring over.. Instead of cake, in this case ice cream and what the hell is the green stuff around it? I don't even know. HAHA Oh BTW, All the waitresses there are white and the bartender. The asian lady in this pic is the owner of the restaraunt. The cooks of course are chinese. haha I must say, i love asian people obviously being asian myself but... Wow i love all the people there, i usually go to asian restaraunts and leave complaining about the waitress or waitor lol is it just me that feels that way? I really hope not.

The hell is that green stuff.. Interesting huh lol looks so yummy though.

mMmm... dig in... lol

My sister took this picture of me at the restaurant.

Group picture w/ the owner of the restaurant.. cus she was super duper nice to us!

There's more pics from the restaurant but i am too lazy to upload all of it. Clubbing pictures are way more fun...lol I didn't bring my camera inside the club but i should of!! Pictures would of came out soo much better but whatever.. here's the pics i stoled from my cousin.

Lynn, Me, Anna
By this time i am freakn tipsyyy... lol

Anna, Lynn, and I
If you go tanning, u will know why my legs are so much tanner haha..

We had so many drinks... I SAY TOOO MANY ROUNDS OF DRINKS.. Took like so many shots too..NASTY. uhm the tab for the drinks came up to be $900. WTF, New purse please.

Wasn't my idea...hahah

Thao, Steph, Me, Sam, Lynn, and anna

I guess i was having too much fun..lol

Giving the birthday girl some love.. Lynn was giving her a lap dance lol

Relationship

2009-01-29T05:45:00.000-08:00

So, i have been in an on and off relationship for a little over 2 1/2 years. We all know on and off relationships are bad. This is def. my first love, some may say it's stupid of me to be in a relationship like this when i am only 19 years old. True, i think it's stupid of me too. I have experienced so much with this dude.. I have turned down so many good guys for him. He's the one person i can have so much anger towards but yet will always run back to. I have tried so hard to stay away from him but i'm just not myself without him. I usually don't forgive people easily but with him i obviously forgiven him over and over again after so much pain he had me put me through. Anyways, here's something my friend had sent me a while back during a break up i had with my man. I was just browsing through my email inbox and thought i would post this up to share with everybody. In my oponion this pretty much made alot of sense..

Possession. Sometimes we hold on to relationships simply because we don't want the other person to be with someone else. For some strange reason, we feel as though we have some false sense of possession over that person, and them being with someone else would make us feel like someone else has something that belongs to us. This is a very selfish reason to keep someone in your life. It is misleading and trifling, let your mate move on and find someone who truly loves them and wants to be with them wholeheartedly.

Convenience. Sometimes, we hold on to relationships simply because we've gotten comfortable. It's not that either party is truly happy with the relationship, but more than likely both parties have been together so long that they just settle for unhappiness. He knows her, she knows him, they've met one another's family, and everyone knows them as "blank & blank". Although, both parties may sometimes fantasize about a happier relationship, the thought of having to leave their "comfort zone" and adjust to another person seems like too much work. The thought of having to readjust is so overwhelming that they eventually get married and spend many more years unhappy. Life is too short to spend it with someone who doesn't adore you. Everyone deserves someone who can love and accept them past their flaws. If you are in this category, you must realize that temporary discomfort can cause you a lifetime of pain. Get up and get out!

Fear. Some people stay in relationships because they are dominated and manipulated by the other party. Whether it be that someone has been threatened of violent repercussions for leaving the relationship or made to feel that they can't survive without the other party, many people are in unhealthy relationships because of fear. The best way to overcome this fear is to face it.

Wanting to belong. Sometimes, many people find themselves in relationships simply because they don't want to be alone. Most people that are in this category jump from one relationship to the next in search of something that they will never find until they come to the realization that they need to spend time with themselves to learn and grow as an individual. If you are in this category, you need to know that you should never allow a man or a woman to validate you. Value your worth and holdfast. In the words of 'Madea', "shut up and wait!"

Ignorant. Yes, there are a few individuals who are in relationships because they are just stupid. Their bf/gf can cheat on them with their mom, cousin, sister, or dad and they will stay together. Some of these individuals even allow mistresses to move in and share the mate.

Love. Yes, there are some people who are in relationships because they are truly in love and adore their mate. They enjoy spending time with each other and think about their mate at least 5-7 times per day. Individuals in this category aren't in the relationship for "show" or for monetary gain. These individuals have genuine love and concern for their mates. If you are in this category, you are blessed to have found someone who loves you for you. Encourage others around you to do the same.

Photography

2009-01-27T10:09:00.000-08:00

Sometimes when i see beauty in a subject or what not i just have to take out my camera and snap, snap, snap!
Here are some of my favorite pictures i have taken.

Right when i got outside to go to work in the morning i saw this and had to run back inside to grab my camera.

Paper stars on my living room floor.

I'm helping my good friend build up her modeling portfolio. We were going for the "Barbie doll" look.

Life sized Barbie!!

Something you would like to hang up on the wall? lol

I was addicted to Shirley Temples for a very long time at one point. My nails happened to match the bottle. lol

This i took on sunday, it's cute w/ hello kitty lol. Happy chinese new year!!

I'm planning on getting some photography studio equipment so i can make some business. This girl on myspace has been hitting me up about doing a paid shoot for her. Ive been telling her i would, the weather has just been too shity and cold to do any outdoor shots. I need good lighting to do indoor shoots... Studio equipments are expensive but I know it will get me started.

Black hair again for chinese new year.

2009-01-25T13:08:00.000-08:00

Friday, i received my package with the circle lens contacts around 11 am. I was anticipating on trying them on but i waited til' later on when i put on my makeup first. Well, i went to go to CVS to buy a bottle of Opti free solution and contact lens case. I got home and of course went straight to the bathroom and took out the circle lens. I placed them on without no problem. A lot of things went through my mind. I thought they looked creepy at first. Some people came over to drink and socialize. I kept asking everybody for their oponion. Half of the people say it looked creepy and half said it didn't but some said "Creepy but nice". LOL. My left eye with the lens was irritated but my right eye felt perfectly fine. At the end of the night when i took them off.. my left eye was a little red. I was kind of scared. I was debating all night if i should wear them the next day or not. Of course on saturday after i got done doing my makeup i wanted to try the circle lens again. I put the lens that irratated me on the left to the right and vice versa. After putting them on, i liked them alot better then when i first tried them friday. My cousin vinh picked me up and we drove 2 hours to springfield, mass for a vietnamese new year celebration. He picked up his girlfriend first then we went to the event. It was crazy packed.. it was bigger then last year and the other years just because a vietnamese celebrity was there. PSHHHH, they paid like 2 gz for her to be there i believe. This year you had to pay for the food there, if they would of used the money to pay for that lady there and used it for other things the community could benefit from like uhm free food!! Well after 10 minutes of being there i met up with my boyfriend since he drove up from boston with his brother i ended up getting there first. By the end of the night i left with my boyfriend and his brother back to boston. They made a stop at this gas station to get drinks and i went inside to go the bathroom and take out the contact lens because the right eye was bothering me and that was the lens i had in the left on friday. His brother droped us off at my boyfriends apartment and he packed his stuff then got in his car and left back to my place in NH. We stoped at my house first because i wanted to put the contact lens on first before we leave to my cousins house for a new year party. They were playing cards and drinking when we got there. I just had 2 mixed drinks and that's about it for me. I was glad the contact lens weren't acting funny when i was there. We left my cousins at like 5am!! I wanted to leave much earlier because we all have to wake up early for temple and of course i ended up not even waking up on time to go! Anyways, took off the contact lens when i got home before i went to bed obv. When i woke up my right eye was sooo red!! No more putting them on my precious eyes! It sucks because of course the first day i thought they looked creepy and that's only because i wasn't used to them since they were a big change on me. Second and last day i wear the contact lens i was loving them but since it gave me pink eye like side effect.. it wasn't worth wearing them. I remembered before purchasing the circle lens i had read a bunch of threads about circle lens and some people did have the same problem as me. I just wanted to try the circle lens out but now i'm really considering paying for a damn eye exam and contact fitting at walmart again to get acuvue free looks! LOL i really hope that day comes sooner!!! Okay, so here are some pics from saturday night..

That's the vietnamese celebrity lady i don't know how to spell her name lol But yea it was dark so couldn't get a clearer picture from where i was standing.

Nu Nu and I at the event.

Trying out my brother's new glasses..he's a geek but it's cool cus i'm a BIG DORK! lol

Getting tired at 4 am.. Just had to take a picture while laying down.....wanted to knock out but i was a soldier. HAha

My cousin has a cute piggy bank i had to take a picture of.

Sharing is Caring. lol

This pic is at my boyfriends apartment, Me without the circle lens..and yes he should clean up..haha

-Kim

Circle lenses.

2009-01-21T21:02:00.000-08:00

This is me 2007. Day of senior prom!
I used to wear fresh looks color contacts 2 1/2 years ago. It was great because i had gotten an eye exam first at walmart and got them fitted. Then my prescription expired and just haven't gotten the chance to get them done, i attempt so many times but failed to come up with a way to pay $108 for the exam and plus paying for the contacts itself. Whenever i had extra money to use, i like to use it wisely on things i really need. I was always curious about the circle lenses i see a lot of girls on the internet were wearing. There were even girls selling them on myspace. The girl i messaged about the circle lenses last year said i would have to get an eye exam to get fitted for the contacts i wanted. I knew that already but i also have had experienced with a place called spiderbite in the mall that would sell color contacts all the same size. They looked really fake and creepy at times haha. My fresh looks acuvue looked natural in person. I stumbled upon someones blog last night and she is currently selling circle lenses. I don't need them to make my eyes bigger altho thats pretty much the purpose of them for most asian girls. I have just always admire people with natural green or blue eyes. I asked her a few questions about the circle lenses she is selling. I was happy to find out that i didn't have to get an eye exam to get my color contacts fitted.. it was all the same size! I know.. not such a great idea, there are alot of risks with these things. I have really good eye vision but i am just too tempted. lol It was very hard choosing a color but it got easier considering i gave her 3 choices and 1 was out of stock. I was left between grey or green/blue. This is the green/blue

It's a blend of green and blue obviously. I ended up choosing this because i had green contacts for a while back then and all them green ones for circle lenses looked really fake but with a mix of blue, looks real pretty. I hope it's going to be greeaaaaat on!!

i'm supposed to get the contacts by friday and I will show you how the outcome of my Nudy 3 tone blue/green contacts!! =]

If you're interested in my blog you might also be interested in checking out the myspace i ordered my circle lenses from http://myspace.com/doll_eyes_contacts

-Kim

Second Tattoo.

2009-01-21T05:08:00.000-08:00

My friend was planning on getting her second tattoo done. We had gotten our first tattoo together summer of 2007. I was very undecided on whether i should get a second tattoo done the same day. The main reason why i should not is i'm very tight on money at this point. Another reason why i had second thoughts was because i honestly had too many ideas that it made it really hard to stick with one tattoo design to do. So my friend gets her tattoo done and after she was done.. the question was obvious. Should i get a new tattoo or not?

I went through with it! No regrets baby! I actually really enjoyed the pain.. lol

Looks better now that its healed. LOL the tattoo artist looks kinda creepy.

Here's some pictures from later on that day..
Darcie and I in my basement.

We went to Rite Aid to buy A+D and i just had to get a picture with this cute bear! lol im a dorrrrrk.

-Kim